Shaping up!

With 5 chapters complete, the book is comnig along just fine. It sucks that I still am unable to make all characters appear in the chapters, but, thats how the book has to be, and thats how it will end up to be...I am unhappy with the delay in completion of chapter 6,7,8 and 9, which should have been completed a week ago, but with exams looming in and the failure to perform in them, increasing by the day...Its tough days ahead...But fly I must and One day I will fly away....

p.s - Being dad's birthday today..he turns 68! phew! I'm thinking of taking him out for dinner, never done that before in the last 20 years, ok fine 25 years! I am today...Hope it goes well...What do I talk about? hmmm!

Poems shifted.

Most of the poems, I had put up on this blog are now in my new blog www.thepoetrybook.blogspot.com This blog will be used for all my other crap!
Happy bloggin!

Missing you like crazy!

Sittin on the porch, its raining...
I cant escape the rain
I cant escape this pain!
and I'm missing you like crazy...

Babes, I love you
still do,
and im still crying,
and I'm missing you like crazy....

little drops hitting the window pane..
I'm goin insane...
sitting alone in solitude
and I'm missing you like crazy....

The thunders' crashin down...
I'm losing my mind
tryin to erase memories...
and I'm missing you like crazy....

And all the people, they feel ashamed...
everyday is another today...
Its just the months that change....
and I'm missing you like crazy...

Footprints in the sands of time...

When someone we love leaves us, we tell them we will be waitin forever...and I realised God was tellin me the same...

Me to her:::
Oh, how I dreamt that one day you will possess me,
How beautiful will you look when I ask for your hand,
As we walk, holding hands the ring will be shining,
Glistening, in the sun as we walk thro' the sand.

But the beach seems empty
I don't see anyone besides me?
Why do I not see your footprints in the sand?
Maybe you are gone but was I not worthy of your hand?

Be happy wherever you are, but if someone ever hurt you
During such times of despair, I will always carry you...

God to me:::
Remember when you were walking along the beach
What you gave her, is what I always preach
Love someone for what they are, not what you want them to be
I'm showin her the light, but for that she has to open her eye

And everytime you saw your footprint in the sand
and there was only one pair, she had already taken her stand
This is life and everything here happens for good
I'm proud of you, and I know you did all you could...

But when you needed me the most, dont think i left you
During such times of despair it was then that I carried you

The Paintin...

A simple dream of being forever yours...
We spending time, every day a few hours...
beautiful kids, we'd have two...
Me holding one kid, and the other with you...

Their evenings would be in the garden swingin'
Holdin hands in the garden we'd be walkin;
Sittin alone in the garden, I get such memoirs
Smilin, wishing these kids could have been ours!

But should I hate whats been done...
When the damage can never come undone...
Hatred cannot end hatred, love alone can
Just be happy girl, and this from an also ran...

Maybe one day you will know of my role..
I've set a target, and you are my goal!
The heaviness of being so much in love with you
Has been replaced by the lightness of startin all over again

I see our future being painted in a future not so far...
But If not me I'll still be happy wherever you are...

A question to all of you!

There was this boy and there was this girl;
And they loved each other just like anyone else.
And the captain would call her every single day;
Be it london, new york, India or norway.

And when he reached base, they still spoke to each other;
In his industry there were a lot of girls but he loved her like no other.
Somehow she started missing him as he was always away...
And one day called it off much to his dismay...

And he looked back at the times he went over to meet her;
It was for a day or two but even then he couldnt be with her.
He took her along to people and places instead of just being together;
And though he didnt realise it, she felt their love go weaker...

And when it hit him hard, he wanted to cut himself to pieces;
And he wanted the plane he was carrying to crash and burn him to ashes.
But he was scared to do so and cried himself to tears;
And if she didnt come back he would be lonely for years...

He knows he made a mistake but everyone gets a second chance;
Anything that can make her look back and give me another glance.
He loves her like crazy and thats his question to you...
What does he do? should he wait or regret this forever and bid her adieu...

A Tear in my pillow.

I'm starin at the ceiling and its late in the night,
Wishing you'll come back, but that seems nowhere in sight.
I'm tossing and turning and im dreamin of you
I dreamt you'd be back, and how i wish dreams come true.

I wake up to find me alone and a tear starts to roll
I'm weeping quietly with the pillow that I hold

Every single day I pray for you, my love.
The first time i saw you, i felt you were an angel from above.
And I prayed to god " Oh please make her my bride to be"
Fate decided otherwise and I cried " why did it have to be me"

And still I wake up alone with a tear in my pillow.
Wondering If I should call you just to say Hello.

Thinkin about you all the time, sometimes messes up my head
And I fall asleep, not sad but dreaming of you instead...
And this is what happens to me every single night.
I pray that you are beside me and switch on the light.

But all i see is a tear in my pillow.
All I see is a tear in my pillow...

Blog note:

I read this in a friend's blog -> http://creativebazaar.wordpress.com. His name is Prateesh, and thought I'd share a snippet out of it. The rest can be read in his blog.

Strange are the ways a relationship treats you. Usually the people who matter to you the most are the most likely to cause you a few heart burns. Of course that is very obvious; since why would you feel for people on the road unless your are Mother Teresa re-incarnate.
Well I suppose the reason you feel the most hurt is when you actually let yourself become vulnerable to the person who you place your complete faith and trust. You have nothing to safeguard against. Sometimes I wonder why do we do this to ourselves repeatedly when we know it can backfire.
Maybe its because we are utterly foolish or perhaps its a trade-off worth the pain since the moments you share with that person is something you cherish more than anything else. The happiness and contentment that you get being with the person is like a soothing balm for the intense hurt and pain that comes along the way if it all fails.

A tribute to a mother. Every mother.

It was mother's day recently and though I dont really believe in appreciating a mother only on a single day, nevertheless I chanced upon a few beautiful sayings about a mother...So mom wherever you are....you know im missing you too!

- God couldn't be everwhere, so he made a mom!
- Annaiyum Pithavum Munnary Deivam. (In terms of priority, this reads as Mom, Dad, Teacher, God)
- Endra pozhyuthir perithuvakum, thun makanai chandron ena ketta thai - A mother feels greater Joy when she hears people appreciate her children more than she felt the day they were born!
- Kuputhro jayetha kwachithapi, kumatha na bhavathi - There can be a bad son, but there cannot be a bad mother!
- Ulagathil siranthathu Thaimai, Amma enbathu thamizh varthai Adhuthan Kuzhandqaiyin Mudal varthai - Motherhood is Divinity, A child's first word is Ma (mother)

An Interview with God

I am an Atheist, thats a known fact, and i plan to stay that way...but...A few days back I was sitting in class, sad and lost, and one of my friends asked me, nah forced me to come with him to a temple, his reasoning, get some fresh air, come out and anyway you have lost something you treasured the most, whats the harm in praying that you should get it back!
Strangely i didnt relent...I tagged along, we reached there, I somehow felt at peace in the temple, no sounds of traffic, no worries, I was in a place where people were praying and it felt nice...he started praying and I said a small goodwill prayer "God please see that she takes care of her health and has good mental stability to overcome any hardships that come her way, I also prayed that I somehow manage to get through this phase without hurting any one"
I stepped out and before I could come out of the temple, I got a sms from her asking about my well-being....I smiled at God. I felt he told me - Don't lose hope, this is your time to focus on your career, in around a year's time, you'd have become what you set out to be, don't lose focus on your career and don't lose hope on her...
I got my answer.

Come back my love!

Can I ever look into her eyes again?
Can She ever realise that I am in pain?
Can the world we created rise again?
Can I prove to all that im not sounding insane?

Is this the end, my beautiful girl?
Is this the end, my sweetheart?
Is this the end of all our marriage plans?
Is this the end of the author's clan!

Can I paint a picture of us?
Can it be beautiful and sweet?
Can I not be in need of some strangers hand?
Can I not look around in some desperate land?

I'm lost in the wilderness
I'm struggling in this madness
I'm im a need to put my life back on track!
I'm in need of a reason for you to come back!

The Painting!

It's ok in the day, as I try to stay busy!
But I still wonder how and where she is!
I'm sick of crying, but I'm not drinkin' yet
Why does her love seem so hard to get?

Every minute is spent thinkin of her
But a post mortem doesnt get the lost back
Sittin under the shower, the water's flowing,
But its the tears thats really hurtin!

I want to paint her a picture;
about the way i feel.
She knows my love for her is strong
Yet it hurts that it all went wrong!

Decisions in a relationship are made by two
I opened my heart to her and she did so to
I was here and she was there, were we missing something?
Wish i was given a year and a half to pop her the ring!

I want to paint her a picture;
about the way I feel.
We holding hands, walking together, being in love all day
It's never too late, before it all fades away

Hope

The wings are clipped,
it seems the whole world is against me...
I feel rejected and lost
I'm dying one day at a time...

All hope seems lost, but the spirit remains
I still wait to know whats my crime..
i resolve to fly no matter what...
I'm dying one day at a time....

Nothing should stop me now, i wont be satisfied
nothing can stop me, not a penny nor a dime
the pain is inevitable, I still aim for the sky
I'm living one day at a time...

I fly, but i still cant touch the sky
my owner will realise it was always me...
the past is painful but the future can behold
I'm living one day at a time...

The sky is beautiful, the world seems brown
I'm hoping one day at a time...
only if she wanted, will i come down...
I'm praying one day at a time...
only if she wanted, will i come down...

Then and now...

When I was seven, I pee'ed in my pants seeing scary movies...
When I was seven, I ran naked around the house everytime we had guests coming
When I was seven, my cheeks could easily fit in two mangoes in them
When I was seven I played trump cards of the WWE superstars
When I was seven I played Hide 'n' Seek
When I was seven I wore half pants to school.
When I was seven I didn't have my front two teeth.
When I was seven life sucked!!!

And then one day I got turned on.

The rest is history

As told by the evil chimp.

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Of New Year, its resolutions and Santa Claus...

I'm back!
And before I say anything this year, i'd like to wish anyone who ever reads this a very happy and successful 2007. I was in Singapore!
I have made quite a few New Year resolutions...lets just hope i keep up with them...on the health side im gonna work out majorly eat healthy and compete against me...yea im gonna compete against me with whatever goals i have set for me.
In my professional front its gonna be a marriage. A marriage to my career and with all the horoscopes coming through, this year i know I just have to choose which bride will be my future.
In my personal front, no marriages as yet, but yes im gonna reduce how much i crap. It might make me boring, but i guess its better to be boring than bugging.

On a final note, I still wonder why Mr. Santa hasnt been caught up by the moral police, how on earth does he get away by saying "Ho Ho Ho" all the time?