A Tear in my pillow.

I'm starin at the ceiling and its late in the night,
Wishing you'll come back, but that seems nowhere in sight.
I'm tossing and turning and im dreamin of you
I dreamt you'd be back, and how i wish dreams come true.

I wake up to find me alone and a tear starts to roll
I'm weeping quietly with the pillow that I hold

Every single day I pray for you, my love.
The first time i saw you, i felt you were an angel from above.
And I prayed to god " Oh please make her my bride to be"
Fate decided otherwise and I cried " why did it have to be me"

And still I wake up alone with a tear in my pillow.
Wondering If I should call you just to say Hello.

Thinkin about you all the time, sometimes messes up my head
And I fall asleep, not sad but dreaming of you instead...
And this is what happens to me every single night.
I pray that you are beside me and switch on the light.

But all i see is a tear in my pillow.
All I see is a tear in my pillow...

Blog note:

I read this in a friend's blog -> http://creativebazaar.wordpress.com. His name is Prateesh, and thought I'd share a snippet out of it. The rest can be read in his blog.

Strange are the ways a relationship treats you. Usually the people who matter to you the most are the most likely to cause you a few heart burns. Of course that is very obvious; since why would you feel for people on the road unless your are Mother Teresa re-incarnate.
Well I suppose the reason you feel the most hurt is when you actually let yourself become vulnerable to the person who you place your complete faith and trust. You have nothing to safeguard against. Sometimes I wonder why do we do this to ourselves repeatedly when we know it can backfire.
Maybe its because we are utterly foolish or perhaps its a trade-off worth the pain since the moments you share with that person is something you cherish more than anything else. The happiness and contentment that you get being with the person is like a soothing balm for the intense hurt and pain that comes along the way if it all fails.

A tribute to a mother. Every mother.

It was mother's day recently and though I dont really believe in appreciating a mother only on a single day, nevertheless I chanced upon a few beautiful sayings about a mother...So mom wherever you are....you know im missing you too!

- God couldn't be everwhere, so he made a mom!
- Annaiyum Pithavum Munnary Deivam. (In terms of priority, this reads as Mom, Dad, Teacher, God)
- Endra pozhyuthir perithuvakum, thun makanai chandron ena ketta thai - A mother feels greater Joy when she hears people appreciate her children more than she felt the day they were born!
- Kuputhro jayetha kwachithapi, kumatha na bhavathi - There can be a bad son, but there cannot be a bad mother!
- Ulagathil siranthathu Thaimai, Amma enbathu thamizh varthai Adhuthan Kuzhandqaiyin Mudal varthai - Motherhood is Divinity, A child's first word is Ma (mother)

An Interview with God

I am an Atheist, thats a known fact, and i plan to stay that way...but...A few days back I was sitting in class, sad and lost, and one of my friends asked me, nah forced me to come with him to a temple, his reasoning, get some fresh air, come out and anyway you have lost something you treasured the most, whats the harm in praying that you should get it back!
Strangely i didnt relent...I tagged along, we reached there, I somehow felt at peace in the temple, no sounds of traffic, no worries, I was in a place where people were praying and it felt nice...he started praying and I said a small goodwill prayer "God please see that she takes care of her health and has good mental stability to overcome any hardships that come her way, I also prayed that I somehow manage to get through this phase without hurting any one"
I stepped out and before I could come out of the temple, I got a sms from her asking about my well-being....I smiled at God. I felt he told me - Don't lose hope, this is your time to focus on your career, in around a year's time, you'd have become what you set out to be, don't lose focus on your career and don't lose hope on her...
I got my answer.

Come back my love!

Can I ever look into her eyes again?
Can She ever realise that I am in pain?
Can the world we created rise again?
Can I prove to all that im not sounding insane?

Is this the end, my beautiful girl?
Is this the end, my sweetheart?
Is this the end of all our marriage plans?
Is this the end of the author's clan!

Can I paint a picture of us?
Can it be beautiful and sweet?
Can I not be in need of some strangers hand?
Can I not look around in some desperate land?

I'm lost in the wilderness
I'm struggling in this madness
I'm im a need to put my life back on track!
I'm in need of a reason for you to come back!

The Painting!

It's ok in the day, as I try to stay busy!
But I still wonder how and where she is!
I'm sick of crying, but I'm not drinkin' yet
Why does her love seem so hard to get?

Every minute is spent thinkin of her
But a post mortem doesnt get the lost back
Sittin under the shower, the water's flowing,
But its the tears thats really hurtin!

I want to paint her a picture;
about the way i feel.
She knows my love for her is strong
Yet it hurts that it all went wrong!

Decisions in a relationship are made by two
I opened my heart to her and she did so to
I was here and she was there, were we missing something?
Wish i was given a year and a half to pop her the ring!

I want to paint her a picture;
about the way I feel.
We holding hands, walking together, being in love all day
It's never too late, before it all fades away

Hope

The wings are clipped,
it seems the whole world is against me...
I feel rejected and lost
I'm dying one day at a time...

All hope seems lost, but the spirit remains
I still wait to know whats my crime..
i resolve to fly no matter what...
I'm dying one day at a time....

Nothing should stop me now, i wont be satisfied
nothing can stop me, not a penny nor a dime
the pain is inevitable, I still aim for the sky
I'm living one day at a time...

I fly, but i still cant touch the sky
my owner will realise it was always me...
the past is painful but the future can behold
I'm living one day at a time...

The sky is beautiful, the world seems brown
I'm hoping one day at a time...
only if she wanted, will i come down...
I'm praying one day at a time...
only if she wanted, will i come down...