You can't see me, my time is now!

Shaping up!

2007-09-04T10:55:00.000+05:30

With 5 chapters complete, the book is comnig along just fine. It sucks that I still am unable to make all characters appear in the chapters, but, thats how the book has to be, and thats how it will end up to be...I am unhappy with the delay in completion of chapter 6,7,8 and 9, which should have been completed a week ago, but with exams looming in and the failure to perform in them, increasing by the day...Its tough days ahead...But fly I must and One day I will fly away....

p.s - Being dad's birthday today..he turns 68! phew! I'm thinking of taking him out for dinner, never done that before in the last 20 years, ok fine 25 years! I am today...Hope it goes well...What do I talk about? hmmm!

Poems shifted.

2007-08-04T17:52:00.000+05:30

Most of the poems, I had put up on this blog are now in my new blog www.thepoetrybook.blogspot.com This blog will be used for all my other crap!
Happy bloggin!

Missing you like crazy!

2007-06-23T10:35:00.000+05:30

Sittin on the porch, its raining...
I cant escape the rain
I cant escape this pain!
and I'm missing you like crazy...

Babes, I love you
still do,
and im still crying,
and I'm missing you like crazy....

little drops hitting the window pane..
I'm goin insane...
sitting alone in solitude
and I'm missing you like crazy....

The thunders' crashin down...
I'm losing my mind
tryin to erase memories...
and I'm missing you like crazy....

And all the people, they feel ashamed...
everyday is another today...
Its just the months that change....
and I'm missing you like crazy...

Footprints in the sands of time...

2007-06-17T08:49:00.000+05:30

When someone we love leaves us, we tell them we will be waitin forever...and I realised God was tellin me the same...

Me to her:::
Oh, how I dreamt that one day you will possess me,
How beautiful will you look when I ask for your hand,
As we walk, holding hands the ring will be shining,
Glistening, in the sun as we walk thro' the sand.

But the beach seems empty
I don't see anyone besides me?
Why do I not see your footprints in the sand?
Maybe you are gone but was I not worthy of your hand?

Be happy wherever you are, but if someone ever hurt you
During such times of despair, I will always carry you...

God to me:::
Remember when you were walking along the beach
What you gave her, is what I always preach
Love someone for what they are, not what you want them to be
I'm showin her the light, but for that she has to open her eye

And everytime you saw your footprint in the sand
and there was only one pair, she had already taken her stand
This is life and everything here happens for good
I'm proud of you, and I know you did all you could...

But when you needed me the most, dont think i left you
During such times of despair it was then that I carried you

The Paintin...

2007-06-10T18:58:00.000+05:30

A simple dream of being forever yours...
We spending time, every day a few hours...
beautiful kids, we'd have two...
Me holding one kid, and the other with you...

Their evenings would be in the garden swingin'
Holdin hands in the garden we'd be walkin;
Sittin alone in the garden, I get such memoirs
Smilin, wishing these kids could have been ours!

But should I hate whats been done...
When the damage can never come undone...
Hatred cannot end hatred, love alone can
Just be happy girl, and this from an also ran...

Maybe one day you will know of my role..
I've set a target, and you are my goal!
The heaviness of being so much in love with you
Has been replaced by the lightness of startin all over again

I see our future being painted in a future not so far...
But If not me I'll still be happy wherever you are...

A question to all of you!

2007-06-02T16:42:00.000+05:30

There was this boy and there was this girl;
And they loved each other just like anyone else.
And the captain would call her every single day;
Be it london, new york, India or norway.

And when he reached base, they still spoke to each other;
In his industry there were a lot of girls but he loved her like no other.
Somehow she started missing him as he was always away...
And one day called it off much to his dismay...

And he looked back at the times he went over to meet her;
It was for a day or two but even then he couldnt be with her.
He took her along to people and places instead of just being together;
And though he didnt realise it, she felt their love go weaker...

And when it hit him hard, he wanted to cut himself to pieces;
And he wanted the plane he was carrying to crash and burn him to ashes.
But he was scared to do so and cried himself to tears;
And if she didnt come back he would be lonely for years...

He knows he made a mistake but everyone gets a second chance;
Anything that can make her look back and give me another glance.
He loves her like crazy and thats his question to you...
What does he do? should he wait or regret this forever and bid her adieu...

A Tear in my pillow.

2007-05-21T07:26:00.000+05:30

I'm starin at the ceiling and its late in the night,
Wishing you'll come back, but that seems nowhere in sight.
I'm tossing and turning and im dreamin of you
I dreamt you'd be back, and how i wish dreams come true.

I wake up to find me alone and a tear starts to roll
I'm weeping quietly with the pillow that I hold

Every single day I pray for you, my love.
The first time i saw you, i felt you were an angel from above.
And I prayed to god " Oh please make her my bride to be"
Fate decided otherwise and I cried " why did it have to be me"

And still I wake up alone with a tear in my pillow.
Wondering If I should call you just to say Hello.

Thinkin about you all the time, sometimes messes up my head
And I fall asleep, not sad but dreaming of you instead...
And this is what happens to me every single night.
I pray that you are beside me and switch on the light.

But all i see is a tear in my pillow.
All I see is a tear in my pillow...

Blog note:

2007-05-17T08:30:00.000+05:30

I read this in a friend's blog -> http://creativebazaar.wordpress.com. His name is Prateesh, and thought I'd share a snippet out of it. The rest can be read in his blog.

Strange are the ways a relationship treats you. Usually the people who matter to you the most are the most likely to cause you a few heart burns. Of course that is very obvious; since why would you feel for people on the road unless your are Mother Teresa re-incarnate.
Well I suppose the reason you feel the most hurt is when you actually let yourself become vulnerable to the person who you place your complete faith and trust. You have nothing to safeguard against. Sometimes I wonder why do we do this to ourselves repeatedly when we know it can backfire.
Maybe its because we are utterly foolish or perhaps its a trade-off worth the pain since the moments you share with that person is something you cherish more than anything else. The happiness and contentment that you get being with the person is like a soothing balm for the intense hurt and pain that comes along the way if it all fails.

A tribute to a mother. Every mother.

2007-05-16T12:34:00.000+05:30

It was mother's day recently and though I dont really believe in appreciating a mother only on a single day, nevertheless I chanced upon a few beautiful sayings about a mother...So mom wherever you are....you know im missing you too!

- God couldn't be everwhere, so he made a mom!
- Annaiyum Pithavum Munnary Deivam. (In terms of priority, this reads as Mom, Dad, Teacher, God)
- Endra pozhyuthir perithuvakum, thun makanai chandron ena ketta thai - A mother feels greater Joy when she hears people appreciate her children more than she felt the day they were born!
- Kuputhro jayetha kwachithapi, kumatha na bhavathi - There can be a bad son, but there cannot be a bad mother!
- Ulagathil siranthathu Thaimai, Amma enbathu thamizh varthai Adhuthan Kuzhandqaiyin Mudal varthai - Motherhood is Divinity, A child's first word is Ma (mother)

An Interview with God

2007-05-14T13:31:00.000+05:30

I am an Atheist, thats a known fact, and i plan to stay that way...but...A few days back I was sitting in class, sad and lost, and one of my friends asked me, nah forced me to come with him to a temple, his reasoning, get some fresh air, come out and anyway you have lost something you treasured the most, whats the harm in praying that you should get it back!
Strangely i didnt relent...I tagged along, we reached there, I somehow felt at peace in the temple, no sounds of traffic, no worries, I was in a place where people were praying and it felt nice...he started praying and I said a small goodwill prayer "God please see that she takes care of her health and has good mental stability to overcome any hardships that come her way, I also prayed that I somehow manage to get through this phase without hurting any one"
I stepped out and before I could come out of the temple, I got a sms from her asking about my well-being....I smiled at God. I felt he told me - Don't lose hope, this is your time to focus on your career, in around a year's time, you'd have become what you set out to be, don't lose focus on your career and don't lose hope on her...
I got my answer.

Come back my love!

2007-05-11T07:46:00.000+05:30

Can I ever look into her eyes again?
Can She ever realise that I am in pain?
Can the world we created rise again?
Can I prove to all that im not sounding insane?

Is this the end, my beautiful girl?
Is this the end, my sweetheart?
Is this the end of all our marriage plans?
Is this the end of the author's clan!

Can I paint a picture of us?
Can it be beautiful and sweet?
Can I not be in need of some strangers hand?
Can I not look around in some desperate land?

I'm lost in the wilderness
I'm struggling in this madness
I'm im a need to put my life back on track!
I'm in need of a reason for you to come back!

The Painting!

2007-05-10T18:56:00.000+05:30

It's ok in the day, as I try to stay busy!
But I still wonder how and where she is!
I'm sick of crying, but I'm not drinkin' yet
Why does her love seem so hard to get?

Every minute is spent thinkin of her
But a post mortem doesnt get the lost back
Sittin under the shower, the water's flowing,
But its the tears thats really hurtin!

I want to paint her a picture;
about the way i feel.
She knows my love for her is strong
Yet it hurts that it all went wrong!

Decisions in a relationship are made by two
I opened my heart to her and she did so to
I was here and she was there, were we missing something?
Wish i was given a year and a half to pop her the ring!

I want to paint her a picture;
about the way I feel.
We holding hands, walking together, being in love all day
It's never too late, before it all fades away

Hope

2007-05-01T21:37:00.000+05:30

The wings are clipped,
it seems the whole world is against me...
I feel rejected and lost
I'm dying one day at a time...

All hope seems lost, but the spirit remains
I still wait to know whats my crime..
i resolve to fly no matter what...
I'm dying one day at a time....

Nothing should stop me now, i wont be satisfied
nothing can stop me, not a penny nor a dime
the pain is inevitable, I still aim for the sky
I'm living one day at a time...

I fly, but i still cant touch the sky
my owner will realise it was always me...
the past is painful but the future can behold
I'm living one day at a time...

The sky is beautiful, the world seems brown
I'm hoping one day at a time...
only if she wanted, will i come down...
I'm praying one day at a time...
only if she wanted, will i come down...

Then and now...

2007-01-27T18:38:00.000+05:30

When I was seven, I pee'ed in my pants seeing scary movies...
When I was seven, I ran naked around the house everytime we had guests coming
When I was seven, my cheeks could easily fit in two mangoes in them
When I was seven I played trump cards of the WWE superstars
When I was seven I played Hide 'n' Seek
When I was seven I wore half pants to school.
When I was seven I didn't have my front two teeth.
When I was seven life sucked!!!

And then one day I got turned on.

The rest is history

As told by the evil chimp.

The views of the author do not necessarily represent those of the moderator.

Of New Year, its resolutions and Santa Claus...

2007-01-02T21:26:00.000+05:30

I'm back!
And before I say anything this year, i'd like to wish anyone who ever reads this a very happy and successful 2007. I was in Singapore!
I have made quite a few New Year resolutions...lets just hope i keep up with them...on the health side im gonna work out majorly eat healthy and compete against me...yea im gonna compete against me with whatever goals i have set for me.
In my professional front its gonna be a marriage. A marriage to my career and with all the horoscopes coming through, this year i know I just have to choose which bride will be my future.
In my personal front, no marriages as yet, but yes im gonna reduce how much i crap. It might make me boring, but i guess its better to be boring than bugging.

On a final note, I still wonder why Mr. Santa hasnt been caught up by the moral police, how on earth does he get away by saying "Ho Ho Ho" all the time?

Bad Ass day!

2006-10-06T18:18:00.000+05:30

So, I'm in New York City, about to take the metro and go downtown, sittin in the chair, i get up realising, my jeans gets stuck to this nail in the seat! It doesnt matter! its jeans hello! they are strong! I get into the train, thankfully im seated, come to the 34th street, when i get off, and walk 12 blocks when suddenly i realise the a/c vent in my pants start working, and i have cool air comin in to me...A quick check on my zip tells me its workin fine, and a quick check on my butt tells me i have a 20 cm hole in my pant! damn nails in seats!!! Oh and no undies make matters worse!!!
What do i do?
Huff! Puff! Sweat!
Relax, its New York City baby! Walk another block, take a cabbie to the hotel and all's well, now only have to wait 2 months and pray no nerd made an mms clip of that! and then life is all good!!!

Sex, woman and rock and roll!

2006-09-13T17:45:00.000+05:30

Reading books and travelling can you give you a lot of insights about people, places and obviously snippets to write about, given below are a few one-liners i have heard, cherished and saved.

* The average man can fool the average woman, if only he will let her have her own way at the start

*The angle of the dangle is directly proportional to the heat of the meat provided the urge to surge remains constant!

*Dancing is the vertical expression for a horizontal desire.

*There are only two infinite things - space and human stupidity.

*There are two areas where new ideas are terrible dangerous: economics and sex. By and large it's all been tried, and if it's really new, it's probably illegal or dangerous or unhealthy.

Aurora Borealis - The Northern Lights

2006-08-04T16:41:00.000+05:30

Through my flying career, i have seen some amazing sights, sounds and signs, but i can tell you, none have been as splendid or spectacular as the Aurora Borealis, also knows as the Northern Lights. Northern lights is a result of our atmosphere shielding against solar particles which would otherwise make our planet uninhabitable.The aurora is a glow observed in the night sky, usually in the polar zone, but its the nature and shape of the glow which makes it so beautiful to look at. The biggest mistake i made was i never photographed it, i will...Till then the memories will do. Oh and i also saw a rising Venus, but then thats another story!

Woman shouldnt be talking balls!

2006-07-02T18:28:00.000+05:30

I'm so fed up with woman talking football! And I'm not a MCP nor a woman hater! its just that it kinda bugs me when they talk football. (I'm not saying I'm Raymond Domenech now but i definately am the average football fan and we do discuss players and strategies) and then one goes::
:oh yea Brazil will win.
Why?
They have Ronaldinho.
Hmmm, you a Brazilian fan?
Yes, I love their team!
Who else do you know in their team?
Ronaldo, ummm Roberto Carlos.
And?
(Long Pause) Brazil will win! Ronaldinho will score and he is cute too!
sniff!sniff!
I have already decided never to define what an offside is to them!
In the end of all that someone comments, "Fine, and remember next time we go out shopping, we will never call you"!
Yaay!

A picture is worth a thousand words!!!

2006-06-16T17:46:00.000+05:30

"We try to grab pieces of our lives as they speed past us. Photographs freeze those pieces and help us remember how we were. We don't know these lost people but if you look around, you'll find someone just like them."
Gene McSweeney, Grey Water Photography, 06-04-2006

What you will see below are a few images, etched in our hearts forever. Most of you would have seen them before, I am still puttin them up here as a sad reminder of how war, hurt, and nature's fury can destroy every effort of mankind to make this world a better place to be in.

Indira Mariyappan (by Arko Dutta)

The fateful day of December 26th, 2004 the great Tsunami struck the coasts of Cuddalore. Indira mourns the loss of her sister-in-law, her only source of support. Deserted by her husband, she lives with her brother, struggling for her survival.

Winds of Change (by Cheryl Diaz)

Standing proudly, 10-year-old Uniss Mohammad Salman was among students returning to Al Amtithal Elemtary School, one of the first in the city of reopen after the invasion of Baghdad.

The Afghan Girl (by Steve McCurry)

She was one of the world's most famous faces, yet no one knew who she was. Her image appeared on the front of magazines and books, posters, lapel pins, and even rugs, but she didn't know it. Now, after searching for 17 years, National Geographic has once again found the Afghan girl, Sharabt Gula with the haunting green eyes.

The Food chain (By Kevin Carter)

Visiting Sudan, a little-known photographer took a picture that made the world weep. What happened afterward is a tragedy of another sort. The image presaged no celebration: a child barely alive, a vulture so eager for carrion. Yet the photograph that epitomised Sudan's famine would win Kevin Carter fame - and hopes for anchoring a career spent hounding the news, free-lancing in war zones, waiting anxiously for assignments amid dire finances, staying in the line of fire for that one great picture. On May 23, 14 months after capturing that memorable scene, Carter walked up to the dais in the classical rotunda of Columbia University's Low Memorial Library and received the Pulitzer Prize for feature photography.
Two months after receiving his Pulitzer, Carter would be dead of carbon-monoxide poisoning in Johannesburg, a suicide at 33. "I'm really, really sorry," he explained in a note left on the passenger seat beneath a knapsack. "The pain of life overrides the joy to the point that joy does not exist."

A heartless city

The raging mob burns and pilages all that which comes its way. This soot-stained , terror ridden face of Naseruddin Qutbuddin Ansari, a 29-year-old tailor, was the defining image of the horror of the worst religious riots in a decade. He firmly believes Muslims and Hindus will unite in Gujarat on Thursday to build a better India.

The execution (by Eddie Adams)

With North Vietnam’s Tet Offensive beginning, Nguyen Ngoc Loan, South Vietnam’s national police chief, was doing all he could to keep Viet Cong guerrillas from Saigon. As Loan executed a prisoner who was said to be a Viet Cong captain, AP photographer Eddie Adams opened the shutter. Adams won a Pulitzer Prize for a picture that, as much as any, turned public opinion against the war.

The melting girl (by Nick Ut)

Nick Ut : " The picture shows Kim, when her skin is burned so badly. Behind Kim, you see all the South Vietnamese armies running with her, together. She looked ever so bad - I thought that she would die.You know, I had been outside the village that morning and I took a lot of pictures. I was almost leaving the village when I saw two aeroplanes. The first dropped four bombs and the second aeroplane dropped another four napalm [bombs]."

P.S: Kim Phuc now lives in Canada

Lost Souls ( by Caroyln Cole)

Kinny Kanneh, age 9, was wounded when mortar rounds landed in a Monrovia refugee camp run by the American embassy. Refugees descended on the capital to avoid fighting, but the violence followed. Pulitzer Prize winner in 2003.

Each of this image is a story in itself, and though not every story has a happy ending, these images ensured that their endings would change, if they haven't already been done. They will be. Oneday. Someday...

I can't be your superman!

2006-05-20T18:16:00.000+05:30

Everybody wants to be superman, and yet no one is, and this is a guy who wears his underwear outside his pants, and when i did that in my college, the girls went ewww and the teachers asked me to take a day off from my tiring schedule. hmmmph life cant be fair at times!!!

But there is onething I admire about superman, he rescues and helps people when they need him the most, and that incidentally is the topic of conversation...

It makes me think of all the times people have helped me and i question myself to find out, if i have ever done enough to justify the faith they have entrusted on me.It's true we dont really know what we have lost till its gone, leaving things for tomorrow and taking things for granted have made me lose the most important person in my life and i will always regret that i could never do more than what i did to make her life happy. Why can't i just have some superpowers to see that all are happy and i'm there when they need me the most. I guess i can never be anybody's superman and the more i try, the more the expectations would grow, this is one flaw i will always carry on just like the sailor did, when he had to carry the albatross across his shoulders when he shot it....

But then ofcourse everyone has his own flaws, just like superman does...I'm sure you have read reports about how he is spending time in jail now for killing his girlfriend when she commented "Superman you came faster than a speeding bullet"

Of Birthdays and growing old!!!

2006-05-05T12:02:00.000+05:30

Hmmm its 12:00, the date reads 04 - 05 - 06, what day is it? Its my birthday!!! where am i? On flight all the way from France...the crew kicks my ass real hard infront of the passengers...the passengers are shocked...the inflight supervisor announces its one of the crew's birthday and they present me with a Davidoff Coolwater...suddenly its all cool...the passengers wish me too...and life comes back to normal....touchdown...Bombay...switch on my cell...i have 42 messages...calls from kuwait london and france...life sure has taken a turn for good..(period) a lot more calls a quite dinner and a tired and satisfied day later its nearing 12:00 in the night now and i am in the train goin home...welcome 24!

What time is it? Time to party!!!

2006-02-01T17:06:00.000+05:30

Ok who apart from Paris Hilton parties in london, shits in new york, drinks in frankfurt, parties even more in paris and makes a fool of herself everywhere else!!! ME!!!!
Been partying so much, and what tops up is that i get to drink all the best brands of wine, whisky, beer, you name it, they got it kinda!.
I met up with this film director from Finland, and while I havent bagged any role, sleazy or other, it was a very interesting hookup...
Went to Frankfurt this time, where a few captains and some senior hostesses called me for a party they were throwing, and what a party it was, we danced, well ok they danced, drank and the hotel we are put up at the Inter Continental is close to the uhh lets say gentleman's club areas....went to this shop called Dr. Meuller, a sex shop, and was amazed by the things they kept to make mankind horny!!!
From there I went to Chicago, and couldnt go out a lot there coz the weather was a lil too cold for comfort, so confined myself to the hotel room, the internet parlour and the swimming pool!
Adios

Friday I'm in love with you.

2006-01-08T23:53:00.000+05:30

Ahh, another few weeks of flying, more experiences, parties, ceremonies...one of the flights i did recently was to Haj, though everyone will probably know Mecca is the most pious and religious of places of visit for muslims. Any Muslim who can afford has to make atleast one visit to Mecca, and this made me salute the passengers on the flight, clearly there were a lot of people in this flight who have never been on an airplane, and cost of the total journey is steep and yet these people save up everything they have to make the trip.
Apart from that this week also happened to me my mothers 1st death anniversary ceremony or whatever you call it, and when I think of all that my mother must have done for me at every stage of my life and how I now will never be able to make up for it ...it kinda saddens me....
I am thinking of buying me a laptop, so if there is someone who accidentally bumps into my blog and can offer me a suggestion, I'd appreciate that...
Nothing else really, I am not in the best of moods now and I might publish a few of my pics if I feel they are worthy to look at.
cheers.

For starters.

2005-12-20T17:17:00.000+05:30

Hmm, Its been ages since I last checked into my blogs. I can tell you I have seen heaven and earth in between. Life as a Cabin crew has been scary, entertaining, freaky at times, exciting at times and ofcourse a lot of hard work and site seeing. As I nowadays sum it up as, life as a flight steward is hours and hours of boredom and a few minutes of danger. This ofcourse only applies to the flying part of the job. I have seen so much happening behind the scenes, not related to work at all. Encountered awesome passengers, major freaks, perverts, leeches, some really helpful people. Thats the beauty of the job i guess, you meet people of all kinds of life with different temperaments, coz of the way they are, or coz of a few flight delays which can peeve even the mildest of all, and yet in those few hours you interact with them, you need to maintain a fine balance of hospitality and service, not to forget trying to establish a little public relation for a passengers continuance towards the particular airline. Yes glamourous this job definately is, but the hard work that goes on while in duty, the heavy carts that need to be lifted from time to time do make up for it all.
I'll end this with a Merry Christmas and Happy New Year to one and all.

Up up and away - A Prelude to what could be on the offing!

2005-10-23T10:40:00.000+05:30

If you have been reading my posts, you will realise I am now working as a Cabin Crew in Air India, and it struck me, why not have a blog on this as well, you know, the way we work up there 35,000 feet in the air, the passengers we meet, the food that's served in an airline industry, the logistics involved in every sector of travel etc. I hopefuly will oblige by regularly posting updates on both the blogs. This blog could also act as a forum kinda, for aspiring people who would like to enter into the aviation industry as a career. Yes you may question my credibility as I am still a newcomer in this field, but heck, I can ask around for stuff, increase my knowledge as well and give you what you require and thats the way the cookie crumbles!!!
The blog will be given a name, and a few names I have thought of are Crew Diaries and Cabin crew (oh how creative!) If anyone could give me a better name, that would be very helpful.

Up up and away.

2005-10-08T10:08:00.000+05:30

I don't know if i am to be responsible to anyone for not posting a blog for such a long time...and yet I feel accountable for this lapse. Though I had made this blog just to air out a few thoughts online instead of a diary, this is so much more of a personal space and yet its so vulnerable....Don't ask me how...It's just that I found another outlet to express myself and now i am back here....
Today I'm gonna talk about my job.
No, not an M.B.A and not an Animator...I am working as a Cabin Crew in my national carrier Air India...and yes initially people were apprehensive of the limitations of the job and how it would affect my creativity and freedom of thought.
I agreed with them mostly, till one day when I had a lecture on my responsiblities and that changed me, I realised as crew I was responsible for the safety and lives of a lot of people on board and thats huge responsibility, considering the "Seconds" I have literally to save all of them, it made me realise every rose has its thorns, what was such a simple job is now something which with alertness and timely action could help people save their lives, and this is what makes the rose beautiful, and my job too.
Yes, this will not dampen my mind against an M.B.A and I will still try to pursue a career in the field of animation, but for now my job and the safety of the passengers my first priority.

A tribute - Amanda Marais (1978 - 2005)

2005-08-21T11:20:00.000+05:30

Roses may tragically wither away; but they leave behind a fragnance none compared...

It's hard to believe that someone so close to you suddenly bids a goodbye, and you don't even get a chance to tell her how much she meant to you as a friend.
True, I have never seen her except in pictures, true we have only been friends for 2 years but true friendship doesnt need one to know a person physically, the emotional connection is what differentiates a friend and a close friend.
A few years from now, when i turn back and think of things that have shaped me as a person, I will see Amanda, a girl beautiful in heart, free in mind and above all a person who lived life by the rules she set!
Amanda was all this and more...I don't know where she is now...but wherever she is, I know she is already making a few stars shine brighter.

Shweta

2005-08-13T22:06:00.000+05:30

Do you realise, how beautiful you are:::
I never meant for this blog to be personal, but this article is something I should have written the day I created this blog.
Its about my girl - Shweta, someone who has meant and given me much more than I could ever possibly imagine. I am not gonna get into histrionics, but I can tell you that she was always meant to be mine and it was just a matter of time till she realised that...
I love my girl and I do wish that what we have lasts us a lifetime, coz I sure as hell know, if not her my life will become an empty vacuum.
I love you shweta and I want you to know, whereever you are, whatever you do I'll always be there thinking about you.

Size does matter!!!

2005-08-06T21:47:00.000+05:30

NOW I'm not pulling your leg guys — but girls CAN tell the size of your willy just by looking at your feet. In a giant step for manhood, sorry mankind, scientists confirm the old wives’ theory that a bloke’s foot size is directly related to that of his todger.
And the Moscow University team has even come up with a formula to help ladies size up a potential partner at a glance: willy size = foot length in centimetres + 5, divided by 2.
So a British size six, which is 24.8cms, means the fella’s old fella measures 14.9cms, or a shade under six inches.
And a guy who stomps around in size 12s will have a healthy 16.8cms or 6.72inches — surely enough to satisfy the most demanding old boot.

The theory is based on research on thousands of men. But don’t panic boys, if your willy lacks welly.
You could always pop out and buy a pair of of winklepickers.
I guess boffins have hit the toe-nail on the head.
But : “I now fear for the prospects of shorter men. There’s only one answer — join a circus. Because if there’s one group of men laughing today, it’s clowns.”

When RAIN do us apart....

2005-07-29T23:39:00.000+05:30

Its a nice warm day, I have finally secured a job in Air India after waiting and losing hope for more than a year and finally on July 26 I am to report to duty...and then all hell broke loose
....its 11:45 now and raining real bad, we are seated in a mock up plane but we cannot budge out of the location, as the water is pouring in...I have never seen such rains in Bombay...so we go up and sit in the business class lounge of the air craft
...Its 3:30 now, every office in Bombay is officially closed. We have been told to go home however! A few people venture out boldly in their cars ignorant of pleas from other employees to give them a lift...as fate would have it, in 5 minutes every car returns back...BOMBAY IS A WRECK!
...4:30 I and my friend trudge out leaving all our valuable documents behind, we are drenched, rain is now pouring in buckets and each drop of rain falls on us like a small pebble. Its very cold and when our shirts stick on to our body we are literally shivering. We wade through the water which is now waist deep, we fall down at times, reach his aunt's place, the entrance of which has me covered upto my chest and I'm 6'3!!!He is home and now I trudge along, I dont really know how long I walked, the only thing in my mind was WALK NO MATTER WHAT. Yea I did manage to see 2 Mercs, one floating in the water and the other left along in the roads at nature's mercy...I somehow managed to reach my relative's place after walking for 3 hrs and 15 minutes
...27th of July:All fine till now, I am in the confines of a very comfortable house, eating and sleeping but still without the luxury of electricity and no knowledge of what's going on around me...As news start pouring in, I realise I am in one of the worst affected areas, my area has virtually become an island with water way over 90 cms all over, and some areas a lot more than that
...3:00 pm - I feel restless here and want to go home, afterall there is nothing like home...so I tell them I am going, they relent after I am firm on my decision, 10 minutes into my decision, I regret it, I am covered with water upto my hip, The water isnt exactly Evian or mineral water quality, no one cared..As I waded through muck, brown water and a lot more water, on the way of which I found a few titled cars and vans, vehicles rammed by other vehicles, trees toppled over and every private and public transport vehicle deserted of its passengers and drivers, I realised my worst nightmare come true. I had 2 ways of reaching home, one was completely cordoned off by the water and the other which I was in, had me walk across a railway station, I used the divider to walk across, and found the tracks completely submerged in the water, and if all this wasnt hell itself, as i stepped down on the other side of the station, a few feet away were dead bodies, the water was chest high again, but this time it didnt matter, we were at the mercy of nature and had given in.Time had stopped, some time later I reached the high way: trucks, cars, vans, bikes, buses, everything on wheels was stranded from one corner to the other. There were people selling food items trying to make a quick buck, another corner there were people offering water and tea for free.Yes the spirit of mankind sometimes exceeds every expectation.I reached home at 6:45, too tired to speak or do anything, I wanted to wash myself, there was no water, no electricity as yet, so the water pump could'nt function. WATER WATER EVERYWHERE, BUT NOT A DROP TO DRINK. I managed to change my clothes, and plopped to my bed.11:30 I get up and my girlfriend who had been frantically trying to call me finally gets through, she doesnt wan't to keep the phone down
.....11:45 Finally the elctricity board wakes up and we get electricity back, good clean water finally comes in.28th of July:Our phones are still jammed but life is slowly coming back to normal, No Office today. This is my story, the millions of people in Bombay will have a different story to tell, some more sombre some more pitiful, but never has bombay's spirit and resilience been tested more in such a large scale.

A view from outside - Guest - Amanda

2005-07-12T22:00:00.000+05:30

From Tattoo’s till High heels

My good friend Madhu has asked me to write a small piece or literature for his blog. And how could I refuse a request from a sweet guy like him. So I took some paper and a pencil and wrote this small article about: Anno 2005, what is still common or vulgar? For your understanding, we are talking about common things on females, not males…. :p

Lets starts with tattoo’s. Do you think tattoo’s are a common or vulgar thing these days? Why do women have tattoo’s? Well I don’t have one myself, but my friends have always told me that they have one because it’s a jewel you carry on forever. My opinion is that some tattoo’s on women are vulgar but some are very pretty. I think it depends on the woman her looks if she fits a certain tattoo or not. For example, somebody we all know: Pamela Anderson. I think the tattoo on her arm fits her perfect. She has the body for it. Not everybody fits a tattoo like hers. Some females can have the same tattoo on their arm but look vulgar.

How about high heels? Why do women wear high heels? Well for me they are the top of elegancy. They can make short women like myself look taller, but also accentuate a woman’s legs and make them even prettier or more feminine. Sometimes high heels have a bad reputation but I think the bad reputation is caused by women who cant walk on high heels. Something you cant do, you reject quicker. My advice to women is: Stiletto’s give you pretty, long slim legs with a feminine elegant look. Save them for special occasions, and don’t wear them every day. Surely not when you go out on a day of shopping

What is next? Red lipstick perhaps? Why do some women choose red lipstick? Well a friend of mine always wear red lipstick because it gives her fuller lips. It flatters her and fits who she is: a fresh and spicy woman. Why do red lips have a bad reputation? Well, not everybody is made for red lipstick. Young girls are afraid to wear it because they are afraid to be called a slut or something like that. Red lips fit perfectly on a woman who has a pale white skin. It brings the attention to her lips and gives her a pretty face.

Mini skirts, liked by many, disliked by some. I love to wear mini skirts myself because they are feminine and sexy and because I am not shy to show some leg. Some people call it cheap, but on the other hand, at a swimming pool you see much more naked flesh. So why do they have a bad reputation by some? Well simply because its about how you wear them! An elegant way of wearing them is absolutely necessary. Sitting down with your legs wide open while wearing a mini skirt is really vulgar and simply not done!

Well I hope you all enjoyed my first little column and hopefully it will get many comments.

Amanda Marais

A view from outside!

2005-07-12T21:54:00.000+05:30

From today, after quite a few requests for posting comments on the site, I have incorporated a new feature in the site where readers can comment on anything they want, put anythin they want in the site and it will be posted..and my first esteemed guest (though it was my idea to invite her) is Amanda from Belgium, a author herself, she has taken some time out to share a small anecdote she shares with others...
Do comment.

In the name of religion!

2005-07-10T19:09:00.000+05:30

This topic may not exactly go very well with a majority of people around the world...and yet I feel like voicing my thoughts on this.
Terrorism, I look upon it as an irony that the self made god's every religion has created has now become the major reason for killings, mass atrocities and war!
Isnt it shameful that the very god we have created, and that goes for every religion, the one who preaches us brotherhood and to be against hatred and disharmony is now the very cause of all the world's sufferings in terms of attacks on mankind!
We have deciphered god's sayings in our own ways and have come out with some bizarre conclusions to his sayings and I am not marginalising one single faith, every faith in its own little community has grown itself hard core fundamentalists who are out there destroying other communities they deem misfits.
I was never a believer in god, but i am not anti-god.
but I do believe in the end...the greatest terrorist of mankind wont be certain individuals but an out of the world being we call God!

Angels and dreams!

2005-06-28T13:38:00.000+05:30

This post is written exactly a day after I received a consignment of 2 Dvd's from my friend Amon...How do i know him? Online. Yet he was kind enough to send me a few files i desperately needed...just goes to show you CAN make great friends online!!! Thanks Amon!!!
In other news I have suddenly started gettin a few offers to make small graphic or animated projects!!! Now if only i get a call from Pixar or Rhythm and Hues!!!

MANners - A guide to bad manners!

2005-05-30T22:09:00.000+05:30

After a lot of research, the great one is providing you average men with a list of things to do...so you may smarten up and know how to behave better!

1 - In the loo, chaps, it’s eyes up at all times — unless you’re next to a celebrity, when a quick glance is OK. Whistling is fine at the urinal and washbasin but not in the cubicle — and you can sing when washing, but at no other time.

2 - How to behave IN THE NUDE — don’t use a towel like a two-handed saw between your legs in the gym changing room.

3 - In buses, give up your seat to pregnant women and old ladies — but only if they are not tourists.

4 - HUGS and KISSES between males are acceptable, but only in the family — and HANDSHAKES should be firm.

5 - At the disco, older guys should stroll on to the dancefloor, not rush, and stick to their era. Funny dancing isn’t funny and mouthing lyrics is as bad as playing air guitar.

Just follow these simple rules and see the world become a better place...

Sodamn Insane photographed with his free Willy!

2005-05-22T10:07:00.000+05:30

After all the commotion from the American Govt over the exclusive pics taken by The Sun of the now reclusive tryant dictator Saddam Hussein in his caged cell, I feel it is uncalled for....I mean, Saddam is now ranked along side the Hitler's of the world, and such pictures just goes to show that the law finally always catches up with you...These pics are definately a much needed relief pill to the families of those unfortunate and powerless Iraqi's who were mercilessly tortured and massacred by Saddam and his tribesmen....

In other news eminem's new video of his song "Ass like that" has a lesbian sex romp act in it...hmmm, Ahhh the wonders of the world....I remember President Bush had once commented "Eminem is one of the biggest terrorists to kids"...I disagree, Eminem always thinks good about kids, and I can prove it....check out the 2 lyrics
""So Kids "SAY NO TO DRUGS", so there'd be more for me"....aah what a noble man...
he is also a campaigner against corruption on T.V when he says rightfully so
"Of course they gonna know what intercourse is
by the time they hit 4th grade,
they got the discovery channel don't they?"
Ban Discovery Chanel!

Big Brother is watching over you!

2005-05-11T19:35:00.000+05:30

A topic for today is Moral Policing, and do we need them? According to me...NO....I mean comeon, till we were 18, we had our parents controlling us, and then, we are "legally" allowed to go out and be free, wear full pants and what do we get? Some people acting like legal gods, or moral policing, No this is bad, no that is immoral??? I mean, who or what gives them the right to ban what we want to see or do? or better still, who gives them the right to even get the idea that they can try to restrict our movements towards the path of "their pre-conceived notion of morality"....Preaching morality is agreeable, not enforcing it....

The World's hairiest Dictator and the movies!!!

2005-05-08T14:38:00.000+05:30

It's official, Osama Bin Laden replaces Tom Hanks from "Castaway" and Sharon Stone's beaver from "Basic Instincts" as the world's hairiest celebrity caught on tape!

He has replaced last year's winner Saddam Hussein who not only earned "The Hairiest Dictator" award from the World Association of Hairy Men but who also had to later pay a hefty bill to the American Dentist Association. I mean, Who would've thought that the American Dentist Association was behind the biggest ever manhunt in modern history? I mean if they had just told Saddam they only wanted to do his root canal (as shown in the video footage of his capture), maybe he would've given himself up earlier, eh? It could very well be that he went into hiding after he realized what his bill was going to be...

News reports have quoted the American Barber Association are now going to be wooed by the U.S authorities to try the same method to capture Osama!

In other news, Spiderman hero Tobey Maguire has recently signed on to co-star with George Clooney and Kate Blanchett in the film "Good German".

I personally think Tobey Maguire is much more suited for a role in a gay porn movie.

Beware of the "DE"vil

2005-05-06T17:34:00.000+05:30

This is an article to criticise someone I have always loathed, her name is Shobha De, I can actually puke everytime I hear her name...I hate her so much!!! First came the apes, then man, and dog's (ok I never said I was good in Darwin's theory of evolution) but somewhere along this came Shobha De, and the dictionary invented the word Bitch!
Why does she ever have to open her mouth or write!!! Arent there jobs which dont involve any of these two????
Ok It seems there aren't! Hmmmph!!!
With an ego, than can outweigh a 100 elephants! and a motor mouth which vrooms more than it moves! I can bet there are hardly 3 people who read her articles in the newspaper! the author herself! the editor! and sadly her husband!!!

Of Birthday's and birthday suits!!!

2005-05-04T17:51:00.000+05:30

Ah finally it's my birthday....birthday's suck...they come just once a year....and when they are over, you suddenly realise a whole year has been added to you...you have grown a few grey cells, suddenly got a lot more wrinkles and while lamenting all this you ask yourself "what have I achieved till now?"
Birthday's can be good for one reason that you get to buy you some decent clothes....My mom always told me, that I loved to be in my birthday suit....Upon inquisting further, she replied with utter disdain " when you were a kid, and we had guests coming home, you'd get so excited, you'd strip and dance near them" Ufff, no you can come home, I dont do any such things now....

2005-05-02T21:14:00.000+05:30

Me!

Lighting Lamps for World Peace! Bah!!!

2005-05-02T18:50:00.000+05:30

Yesterday, there was this huge commotion in my area...People were supposed to light lamps, 1,25,000 of them for WORLD PEACE, now where did i hear it last? aaah Miss congeniality, hmmm....Impressive no doubt...But it had me thinking, what was the occasion? There were no terrorist attacks recently?, then why this hullabaloo, kept me wondering....yes there was a T.V crew, there were sponsors and celebrities. Not surprising coz in India no event can take place without atleast a pinch of celebrity content in them....
Now I beg to differ and I am sure there will be a lot out there who disagree with me...but i still believe it made no sense to organise this in a small locality like mine where the last act of terrorism occured around 1973 when a thief robbed a empty house (if that can be deemed an act of terrorism), I really believe it made no sense in organising such an event in my area, instead of either doin it in a war stricken area or a area where there was communal disharmony....and what about all the money spent? why not use that money to build better infrastructure or help the poor?

Life's like that...

2005-04-28T20:49:00.000+05:30

The irony about life is that you only have one chance at most of the thing's...I am 23 now...24 exactly one week from now and I am still contemplating what to do? An M.B.A or continue my animation...I love the animation field but in India the initial pay for atleast a couple of years isnt anythin to be proud of, whereas an M.B.A can atleast ensure me a decent job and have my wallet a little heavier...What to do??? or as Shakespeare would have quoted...To do an Mba or not to do an Mba, thats the question?
till later...
ciao...

Welcome aboard Yo!

2005-04-26T19:24:00.000+05:30

Hi, I am Madhu, and this blog will provide you with a glimpse of my life, news from around the world and all this and more added with a little spice in it...
So sit back and enjoy....

About me...I am a Management graduate, and instead of pursuing an M.B.A, am doing my C.A, naa I meant Computer Animation, still doin a course in it...so expect a few of my works to be uploaded here....

Yo
Madhu